make glemonade

I can't be the only one that every time I read that phrase still hears that annoying song from Phenomenon by Eric Clapton. But, with a more sober tone, I am so saddened right now that to look at this topic and not think about mass shootings and police violence, and violence against police, is impossible. I've not been writing this post because I feel like it deserves more time and deep thought than I have been able to muster. But can't you feel it, from everywhere? Everyone is so tired, we are so tired of fighting, so tired of anger, of hate, of injustice, of intolerance. I look around and see most of us do want to get along, we want peace and safety, mercy and if not that at least justice. Every week now there are more, not just one but several killings, shootings, and if not shootings it's a truck, it's a bomb, it's something. Aren't we all just tired? What can we do? I know the solution we have is to be part of the change, be kind, be thoughtful...

It's something I've just laughed off or used as my "interesting thing about me" in all the first days' getting-to-know-yous. "One thing people may not know about me is that I can't swim"... "I'm not a swimmer, I'm a drowner"... One of my New Year's Resolutions this year was to learn to swim. So probably around February, I looked up adult swim classes at the Provo Rec Center, and found one. Wasn't that hard.  I convinced, also somewhat easily, my partner in crime, Lisa, to do this with me. She also is(was) a drowner. It's one of those things you put off forever and then you finally google it and you're embarrassed because it's so easy to find a solution. Well... okay... it wasn't that easy, nothing is ever that easy with a rec center (we were late for registration, but the class hadn't started). Without elaborating on the details of my phone calls to the Provo Rec, we made it on the list within 24 ho...

I know I'm not so quippy these days when it comes to titles, but I just can't be bothered with it. I cannot believe it has been a week since I last posted, longer even. It goes so fast and slow at the same time, as most things do that one is not accustomed to. Eric's ANC count has been at 0 for a few days now, which is a good thing. But he has been really sick because of it. This whole weekend he slept; I think he was awake about an hour or so each day total. He throws up almost everytime he tries to eat, which isn't all that often since he is so tired. They give him shots now like the ones they gave before he collected in order to stimulate cell growth, and the projected day to go home is Saturday (this would stem from 2 consecutive days of an ANC>.5). I won't hold them to it, but it would be really nice. Eric is drained, but mostly physically. He can't speak for himself right now because he is sleeping, but it would wear on anyone. I admire him so much f...