I know I'm not so quippy these days when it comes to titles, but I just can't be bothered with it. I cannot believe it has been a week since I last posted, longer even. It goes so fast and slow at the same time, as most things do that one is not accustomed to.
Eric's ANC count has been at 0 for a few days now, which is a good thing. But he has been really sick because of it. This whole weekend he slept; I think he was awake about an hour or so each day total. He throws up almost everytime he tries to eat, which isn't all that often since he is so tired. They give him shots now like the ones they gave before he collected in order to stimulate cell growth, and the projected day to go home is Saturday (this would stem from 2 consecutive days of an ANC>.5). I won't hold them to it, but it would be really nice.
Eric is drained, but mostly physically. He can't speak for himself right now because he is sleeping, but it would wear on anyone. I admire him so much for being so normal and taking everything at face value. What I admire most is difficult to explain; it isn't necessarily optimism, but rather resolve to make this part of life still count. It will just be this thing we had to go through a long time ago (we hope!!!) someday, but we are also making an effort to count these days and make them worthwhile... If that makes sense. Eric does well at this. I am so proud of him.
Since I started college I started saying that this time of life is just so full of transitions. Everything is always changing, so much that it becomes the spiritual equivalent of the growing pains you have as a teenager. I know I am just barely finishing these early-twenty years, but I'm starting to understand that change is not a phase. The present is always changing. We can't expect a so-called break in the future. So we adapt. I think this time has been a new way to learn to adapt to the life presented in front of you that day.
Thanks to Eric's aunts Kath and Nanc for coming to visit. He was very pleasantly surprised! And for those of you that have brought some dinner, I never could have predicted the true blessing it would be. Thank you.
Eric's ANC count has been at 0 for a few days now, which is a good thing. But he has been really sick because of it. This whole weekend he slept; I think he was awake about an hour or so each day total. He throws up almost everytime he tries to eat, which isn't all that often since he is so tired. They give him shots now like the ones they gave before he collected in order to stimulate cell growth, and the projected day to go home is Saturday (this would stem from 2 consecutive days of an ANC>.5). I won't hold them to it, but it would be really nice.
Eric is drained, but mostly physically. He can't speak for himself right now because he is sleeping, but it would wear on anyone. I admire him so much for being so normal and taking everything at face value. What I admire most is difficult to explain; it isn't necessarily optimism, but rather resolve to make this part of life still count. It will just be this thing we had to go through a long time ago (we hope!!!) someday, but we are also making an effort to count these days and make them worthwhile... If that makes sense. Eric does well at this. I am so proud of him.
Since I started college I started saying that this time of life is just so full of transitions. Everything is always changing, so much that it becomes the spiritual equivalent of the growing pains you have as a teenager. I know I am just barely finishing these early-twenty years, but I'm starting to understand that change is not a phase. The present is always changing. We can't expect a so-called break in the future. So we adapt. I think this time has been a new way to learn to adapt to the life presented in front of you that day.
Thanks to Eric's aunts Kath and Nanc for coming to visit. He was very pleasantly surprised! And for those of you that have brought some dinner, I never could have predicted the true blessing it would be. Thank you.
Way to go Eric and Holly!! You guys are both so amazing. I love what you said at the end about change. It's so hard to deal with sometimes. But you guys are handling it quite well! Great examples.
ReplyDeleteAnd so we learn from the experiences that are placed on our path. The path that is only ours, but hopefully will take each of us "home". I do feel that the two of you have truly chosen to work through this time with the very best of attitudes. As we know, it is not the test, but how we handle the test that shows who we are. I love you both so much!!! I love you as individuals and as a couple. Keep the faith, the gospel is true (words from Eric's missionary letters to home), and we will see you soon.
ReplyDeleteBless your hearts!!! I think about you often and am so impressed with your sweet spirit of (you named it) "resolve" and expressed it so beautifully!!! I wish you the very best as you "adapt" to life's challenges...they give new dimension to our lives...STAY STRONG!!
ReplyDelete"resolve to make this part of life still count"...powerful words, my girl! So often we get so fixed on something in the future that we may fail to make the present productive and worthwhile! Wise words! See you soon...it's time to make our bid for "Visitors of the Week"!
ReplyDeleteWe love you guys so much. We are ready for a visit as soon as you guys can come down here. Love you!
ReplyDeleteEric does have an amazing outlook on all of this, as do you! It's so refreshing to be around him and to feel like he's not even phased by any of this. Brad said "that well is dry my friend" the other day and we were rolling, lol.
ReplyDeleteGet well soon Eric!
PS. We heard the news from Chris B that we made the blog! We'll send you a fruit basket.
You two are amazing! Sending you love and positive thoughts from Michigan. Laura xo
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, inspirational post my dear, as always! Made me cry. You both have such spirit and resolve! I love you very, very much!!!
ReplyDeleteThrough all of this, you two are just looking at what is really important in life and what you can gain from this experience - you two are such an inspiration. I am so proud of you two and your spirit. We love you so much. You are in our thoughts and our prayers. I hope that Saturday is the big day and things start to get better soon. We love you!!
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