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This weather. It always makes me laugh, the way we coo and fawn over any weather. My facebook and instagram have been littered with screen shots of weather apps, and I fain gratitude as if I, as if all of us, didn't have a weather app or access to the internet. But still, the first time it snowed here in Utah this season, that was different. Everyone posted a picture, but I was actually grateful, that there truly is a kid in each of that stops in wonder at the first freshly fallen snow, that forgets that mid-January we will despise the polluted piles on each parking lot median. And here we are today. The sun is out, the inversion it (mostly) gone, and the horrible road conditions of the past few days are forgotten. 28 degrees feels like 50 (yesterday), and I'm dreaming of summer.  The sun is shining. And the sun is not setting all the way before 5:30pm. I forgot how real the winter time blues are. Man. Go soak up some sun today while you can, because I didn't realize ho...

Well, when I see the quote run around the internet that "the best things in life aren't things..." my initial reaction is 'that doesn't make any sense. Obviously if you are thinking of something that isn't a "thing" then you should not be using that phrase'. BUT instead of being a brat, I will just get the point. Yes, my family are my favorite things. And let me tell you the reasons why: My dad is very brave. He works tirelessly and always has to provide for our family. He has sacrificed a lot of things, including, to a great extent, his social life, his hobbies, to keep our family going. I am so proud of him. He also sacrifices his own time serving in church, and has for a long time. My dad is also an excellent listener. He is wise, and weighs out what you say and gives his advice, then let's you decide. I think what I really admire about my mom is that she always seems to be true to herself. I don't know if she has ever said somethi...

"What the... you're NOT my MOM..." "Oh. It's okay, you're my Aunt Holly!" Dressed and ready to go on Friday. Check out the kicks. Everytime I turned around she had stole another apple from our box of apples we keep on the floor... hmmm.  I kept putting it on the counter and Eric kept moving it back to the floor. Trying to make her feel at home by eating breakfast on Saturday. A tradition for the Guz  Fam. Saturday "Is that me?" "It is me! Yay!" As only babies do, she somehow figured out how to change the camera on  my phone to all white. But look at those pretty blue eyes. Sunday Morning Nap. Football Football... More Football My living room last night. This may not seem disastrous to others but it gave me major anxiety. She was all over the place that night. ...so obviously I gave her an otter pop to calm her down. I loved my weekend playing mommy. It was h...

Many of you are aware that Eric had his (potentially) last scan at Huntsman last week. He has been getting them at least once every six months since his BMT. With this clear scan, we won't have to worry about cancer anymore. For the most part. I don't know if I'll ever not worry about it. This is an image from one of his very first scans back in 2009. When we left this week we asked to have them for our records. I saw it as a personal history thing, they saw it as planning for future doctors. Yeah, sure, whatever. Just as long as we have the pictures. The lighted up portions of the picture show activity from the cancer. Yeah. Scary?!?! We are ecstatic to announce that the scan this last week was clean and we will not ever have to do that again, unless he starts getting symptoms. Heaven forbid. Besides the recent infertility concern, we don't think about this part of our life together very much. It is like a sloshy, groggy, bad dream cloud that hung over us for awhile ...

First of all, are you wondering if someone has been spamming our blog somehow? The answer is no. A lot of the stuff Eric wants to put logos on has to have a url address (I don't know if that is the correct lingo) instead of just physically uploading a picture, so we have been using the blog to create links in order to upload photos. Lame. I know. I guess that means I am assuming you all stand captivated, awaiting the next brilliant post and that we are disappointing you each time there is a rustle of movement on the blog. I guess. But I know I love when you all post something fresh, so I am going to stop punking you and start writing. I have been thinking a lot lately about things. Bah ha. What else would I be doing? What else would you be doing? The weather is finally getting nice. The mountains are greening, the sky is blueing, the birds are crapping all over my jeep. I went to drive to work today and they crapped all over the driver's seat. That's it. Not the hood, or t...

I opened a shoe box of mine last night and perused the contents. Birthday cards, letters, notes. I read them randomly (and purged a few from ex-boyfriends without reading haha) and turned to ask Eric, "when did people stop writing hand written notes?! when did everybody stop doing nice things for each other?". My conclusion was about 2005. I had notes saved up through my sophomore year of college. I think a large part of it is facebook. Instead of sending my sisters a funny news clipping or a letter full of movie quotes, I simply post on their walls. And I don't think this is an awful thing. I just noticed, that's all. I have often thought that people don't do nice things for each other as much as they used to, but as I sat and thought last night and today I realized that it's not other people not doing this anymore... It's me. How long has it been since I wrote someone a note just to compliment something I admire in them? I had a bad day a couple weeks ag...

The week of Christmas was wonderful. It started with Early Christmas at Grandma and Grandpa's in Grand Junction, which is a Christmas celebration the weekend (or so) before the real Christmas, consisting of my mom's family. It is one of the best family traditions we have. I am so grateful for the time we got to spend with all of them. We always have a small birthday moment for my Dad (12/17), my Uncle Dan (12/19), and me (12/9) and I am so spoiled to get to blow the candles out with these two every year! Eric overall did really well during all the celebrations. We wish he could have the Prednisone everyday because it seems to make him feel so much better. When it ran out the fatigue set in. He has also begun to experience tingly fingers on the verge of numb. Annoying, really, more than anything. Especially when you are the owner of an iphone. He is having a little more trouble typing so if you are receiving texts from Eric that don't make any sense, now you know why. He als...