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The first time we did in vitro, we got 6 good embryos. We used 2, with my age and reproductive health they didn't even want us to do 2, saying it was fairly risky that we would get multiples. We, of course, as you know, didn't get pregnant. This was back in June/July 2012. I got really depressed (I think I wrote all this before but I'm summing up just in case you are behind). I couldn't even think about trying again for a really long time, but we did have 4 embryos frozen with our doctors, waiting for us. We decided when we did it for the second time we would just keep it to ourselves. We didn't tell anyone, and it was liberating in a lot of ways. It had been so devastating before, I just couldn't bear to talk with anyone about it again. It was important for us, Eric and I, this time, to just keep it between us. I think that was something we could control in the whole thing, and it suited us this time. So we started in November of 2013, about a year and a ha...

To accompany the last post. And Eric is the best for sending me the pics! Because they are great. It's just from the zip lining in Ensenada but it was so fun. Just off the ship in Ensenada. The whole group. Love being a part of this family! Getting geared up. Literally.  Don't be fooled. I was petrified at this point. This is Dave and Katie but it's the best showing of the first bridge. Eric about to cross the first bridge. I think this was the 3rd one. This was the easiest, I thought. Even though I look a little off balanced here. This is Katie. But this one was actually the hardest I thought, because you had to reach so high. My shoulder killed for like 4 days after this. Oh, and how about an actual zip line?! Doesn't look fast, but it was. It shows the distance really well, though. Eric had had enough and decided to take over the mic for the duration of the "tour"

Has it really been a month and a half since I blogged? I don't have anything to say, but I just feel like talking to you.  Life is pretty good. Just got back from a cruise with the Glem Fam. We went to Santa Barbara (and didn't even get off the boat) and Ensenada. We had a great time, the best thing was going zip-lining in Ensenada. Eric rented what we commonly referred to as the party bus, which turned out to be a normal bus, but it did say we were lucky on it. And it was #27, which is my age so I do find that lucky. [note: by the time I am actually posting this I am now veintiocho] This bus was very lucky, because as we pulled in to the zip line parking lot, we had to ask our guide if it was open. She had to pretend she knew it was and hope for the best, because that place was a ghost town. But we walked up and it was open and we were the only ones there!  I was really nervous to do the first zip line. As I climbed the ladders two thoughts crossed my mind...

I used to laugh and laugh as Eric, Pace, John, and Mikey would recap their intramural basketball games. We'd drive home, I'd make dinner, paint a room, and do a reading assignment by the time they finished. Honestly, the recap usually last the length of the game itself. And that is the reason I've put off blogging this summer. It was jam-packed and I fear it may take me as long to analyze play-by-play as it did to actually enjoy it. In April, which was, granted, before I last blogged, we went to Las Vegas with our good friends, Mikey and Melissa. We had a great time, even though it was only a weekend. We hit up Hash House a Go Go, Gold and Silver Pawn (Pawn Stars), saw Cirque de Soleil's "O" at the Bellagio, and spent a night in old town, which we love. I did get spanked with a whip by a girl in a thong when Melissa and I were headed back to meet up with the boys... but I guess I'll put that in the win column, cuz I still got it. We had wanted to go ...

I started a new job this week. I'm working at  Prodigy Promos . Let me tell you the story. I got a phone call about a month ago from Jason (my new boss), and he asked me to come work for him. Well, in all honesty he had called me originally about a year and a half ago and asked if I'd be interested in coming over to work for him then. I was not interested at the time, but I was duly flattered and thanked him for thinking of me. Well, this time he called and offered me a position with more potential. We met for lunch, him and the VP and I and we hashed out potential details. I was so torn: I hadn't even been looking for another job. But the money was better, and the potential for growth definitely there. It was really difficult to make the decision. I agonized over it. I love my coworkers at AMP, I loved my job. But most of what was holding me back was fear of taking a leap. I prayed and prayed, but the funny thing is as soon as I would finish my prayer I would think P...

At Centennial Elementary, I had the unique experience of having one teacher for 1st-3rd grade, and then another for 4th-5th. I didn't have any other experience, but if I could choose this for my kids I would. They are so familiar with your development that way, and you learn to trust them so wholeheartedly. First through third, I had Mrs. Hoglund. I was so little and my memory fails me in so many ways, but I can tell you she absolutely created an environment where I was able to learn and learn quickly. There aren't a lot of specific things that I remember, but I was 6, 7 and 8 years old, so what do you expect? From Mrs. Richen, my home room in 4th and 5th, I learned math and science. Mrs. Viorde did social studies, and Mrs. Henry did reading, as far as I can remember. Most of my memories take place in Mrs. Richen's home room. I remember one day Mrs. Richen told us a story that still hurts my heart. She told us about a time when she dressed up as the Easter Bunny for s...

I've just been thinking and what am I if I'm not honest with you? I guess I'm just not really living unless I'm being 100% honest... and... my real name is Fat Patricia. This is what is really hard about our infertility: We are really happy. We are living a great life, with good jobs, wedded bliss, good friends, family, food, vacations, concerts. Pretty much whatever we want, we do. We are young by most people's standard.  The problem is if it isn't broke, why fix it?  Why would we go and try to do this expensive, draining thing again, with either result? "Oh my gosh," I know half of you are thinking, "Don't you want to have kids? Isn't that the happiness you are looking for?" Yes. It is. And the other half of you are thinking, "Get it, girl! YOLO and you have plenty of time. Your time will come. Just enjoy this while it lasts!" And yes, I know that is true as well.  So here is my beef: with IVF I have to...